Feeling Fucking worthless.

Current Mood: Ashamed.

Currently Listening to: AOL Radio, Xtreme Alt Rock is the station, as per usual. some godsmack a little bit ago, and right now pantera, but pantera sucks. music is amazing, it helps you get over things. the one bad thing about music is that music can't be your friend. It can give advice, you can give it your problems, but music can't give you advice for your problems. It's the way it works in my eyes.


today things are taking a turn for the worse.
I have problems, I just know it. some sort of a mental disease and it's just fricking annoying. actually not annoying but just Freaking.....ugh. FUCK. I hate this. sometimes I hate myself. I feel depressed.


I feel really anxious and really violent toward people I love. I feel like I want to scream and cry inside because of all the things I think about. I feel like I'm never going to get ANYWHERE.

We watched a video on depression in P.E. today and it was so stupid it was almost funny. It was so unlike the real thing, actors can't act out depression. Its impossible. It has to come on. just tell the actors that they have to grow the fuck up and get real jobs. then watch them get depressed.






I'm messed up, I'm sorry.



IF YOU CAN'T TAKE THE POST ABOVE, DON'T READ THIS. THERE WILL BE MORE LIKE THIS. I CAN AND WILL GET ANGRIER.


sorry again.

sorry again.

sorry again.

sorry again.

sorry again.